Sleep

It seems that Sleep does not come easily for me anymore... Why? Heh, I wonder the same thing. Perhaps it's the massive amounts of information streaming through my brain at any given moment. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that I live in an incredibly volatile world...

I don't know, it's been getting to me lately. So much work to be done and not enough response. Things never go the way we want them to, and the only saving grace that I have is knowing that's how it's ALWAYS been... You would think that I would be used to this by now...

I guess one doesn't just "Get Used To" turmoil. It's not something you can adapt to since it's not natural for a human to be under this much self-induced stress all the time... Alcohol doesn't work, and I'm not too keen on using drugs to induce sleep.

I can tell you one thing though it's definitely psychological... I miss my home... Did I ever really have one in the first place? I did but... it was always out of reach... Gaaaah this is why I always lie awake! My brain doesn't shut off it just.. keeps thinking no matter what I do...

I will say this though: It means a whole hell of a lot more when I do get a good night's sleep...

Well I guess I'll try and rest again... I call it rest because I doubt any real sleep will be happening. Ah well... Such is the life I choose to lead I guess... Good night.