This year has certainly been an interesting one. A lot of things have happened that caused me to re-think what I want from my life. For a long time, I felt like this:
Then that, went to this:
Now I'm more like this:
While there's a lot of good things in my life, there are still a lot of things that I absolutely despise. I've always wanted to travel, and after having an opportunity to do so, I am realizing just how unhappy I am being stuck in the same place. The choices I've made in my life keep me locked down because of debt and previous obligations.
As much as I'd like to leave it all behind and say Math the consequences, I know doing so would put a few others in tough situations themselves. I'm a pretty smart guy(how smart you ask? Smart enough to know that you're probably reading this in Finn's voice, and if you weren't, you are now assuming you've seen Adventure Time before), so understanding the steps I need to take in order to achieve where I want to be isn't much of an issue.
Finding motivation to take these steps and stick with them is the difficult part when your every day tends to leave you feeling downtrodden. Which is why I must broaden my horizons, seek a greater audience of people who wish to truly encourage me in my endeavors. Making people care about you isn't easy, especially when you have to sell yourself as well as your writing.
No matter what happens, I know that my life is on it's way to looking more like this:
While this weighs heavy on my head and heart, at least I can poke fun at it and hopefully make someone else smile in the meantime. At least I know I'm good at that. Although sometimes it just boils down to this: