Lately I've been finding myself inspired greatly by life. Things have gotten much better and even though I haven't had the time to really do what I want with that inspiration, it's still good to know that it's there. The unfortunate part is that despite being inspired in many ways, this inspiration comes up at all the wrong times. Usually when I'm at work(when I hate my job), or in the morning before I go to work like right now.
It's rare when I wake up early enough to spend the time I need to spend to make a quality post. I've always been a firm believer of quality over quantity, which is why you don't see many posts from me anymore. That's ok though! Regardless of how long it takes to get another post out there, it's good to know that I'm still inspired and driven enough to keep going. Even if it takes a good long while to get there.
At the end of the day all I can hope for is that my inspirations will continue to manifest in ways I can make good use of them with. It's hard to do when your time is so consumed by every day life. Especially now that I am in a relationship when I never had one before in my life. A lot of that time disappeared. I'm not upset about that in the slightest, mind you. I appreciate and enjoy every minute I spend with her, so it doesn't bother me that I don't have that time anymore.
Then again, I think that's exactly what complacency is. Being too comfortable with the things you have that you forget about the dreams you once held. If I truly want to be a writer, I need to look past those comforts and continue to write. And that's exactly what I plan to do. It's just not that easy unfortunately. I've found something that makes me quite happy, and that's definitely nothing to ignore.
Is this why it's important to find someone who compliments your dreams and wants to push you towards them? These are all new concepts that I'm working through. Can we find inspiration in the things we know intimately? Or must it come from things we are unfamiliar with? I suppose that depends on the person and I need to find which dynamic suits me best for being a writer and supporting myself in the day to day.
Perhaps I just need to learn to apply the same work ethic I have at my job to my writing. I've never taken it to the point where I felt like it was a job and worked at it that way. Mostly because I feel like that would force the stories and that's not something I want to do. Maybe going through the motions of writing is what will get me to remember those inspirations I had from the day. I can't say for sure, since these are all concepts I haven't tested.
Though there is a lot more to consider on a topic like this, I think it's best to simply get out there and apply them to my life as best I can. It may not be easy, and it may feel forced at times. But I know those of you who enjoy my work will continue to support me and let me know what works at what doesn't. I'm counting on it actually. So thank you to those who are taking the time to read this and understand why my work seems to be on hiatus lately.
I love you all and I hope to have a new story for you again soon!