Lately I've been doing a lot of thinking. I'm working so damn much I barely have time for myself anymore and the whole writing thing is taking a back seat. On top of that, I'm dealing with a lot of psychological stuff that's not exactly easy to sort out. As some of you have seen on the blog here, I've had a good bit of psych problems due to growing up with video games(and doing pretty much nothing else).
Even to this day it's hard to kick the habit of games being all I want to do. When I get home from work more often than not I'll just kick back with some Borderlands or Destiny and just do a whole lot of nothing important. It's a nice break to have a chance at growing my character and seeing direct benefits to the time I put into it. God knows right now every minute of work I do in the real world won't see any real benefit for a good long while ahead of me.
Yet still, it's unhealthy for that to be all that I do with my time besides work. In the past the importance of my time was amplified by working a lot. Now, since I'm working for two people and I also have far less monetary wiggle room than I did before, it's a lot more stressful. Add on top of that no sign of advancing Willow's chronic pain treatment for a good long while(the Mayo has a waiting list that can take well over a year to get anything back on). My grandpa is in poor health, I don't have many friends and not many are taking the time to really ask and see how I'm doing.Read More